Failure is not falling down but refusing to get up




its funny when you see a different side of me,and immediately judge me.
its funny that just because i kept quiet instead of being my old goofy self, you think i have a problem.
its funny that when im in no mood to forgive and forget, you forced me to do it.
its funny how perceptive you are when i don't feel like mixing with you for a while.
its funny how you like to control my life, whereas i don't get a say in yours.
its funny how everything i say is somehow an insult, whereas everything you say is funny.
its funny that my actions, has to be a response to yours.

please, all these while. i have been very caring and understanding enough, not to lose myself in anger.
thinking, if i showered all my negativity on you, it will affect our friendship.
thinking, it will never be the same again.

but just an hour of me being in the fit of rage,
i am in the wrong.
i am the bad guy
i am uncontrollable
i am mean
i am full of hate

seriously, is this fair? don't judge me,by what i did in a few seconds,minutes,hours.
judge me when you know me.
judge me when you've spent time with me.
judge me, when you are in my shoes.

so please, don't judge me just because i said "FUCK"
please, i don't even say that word to often.
i don't even say vulgarities.
i only use that when im in rage.

and please,
stop telling your friends my behavior is nonsense and im a poser
whose the nonsensical poser who brings stuffs to school just to show off.
its good if you know how to use it.

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